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#actuallyadhd

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Every time I feel my brain getting overloaded by the endless stream of information, digital feeds, or just my own hyperactive #neurodivergent synapses, I re-listen to this absolute gem of an audioblog by @keenan

It perfectly captures the over-processing ramp-up...

..then culminates in a soothing bubble bath of velvety voice mastery washing over your brain folds. 🫠

gkeenan.co/avgb/hot-take-its-o

gkeenan.coHot take: It’s okay if we don’t consume all of the world’s information before we die
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Unlearning conformist bigotry is so weird when you've been entrenched in it and brainwashed with it since you were a child. Instead of all those triggers at the world tells you you should be weirded out by, you now have to take that and flip that into celebration

It's very freeing but that freedom is also mildly anxiety inducing as you have to re-learn boundaries of what is actually unacceptable. No, the person showing their interests full blown is perfectly fine and a good thing. Yes, the "cool" people mocking people over being themselves should be viewed as toxic and are not cool at all. Etc.

@barefootrambling
I really enjoyed reading this. I keep learning more and more about my blend of #AUDHD

In some ways it's validating and enlightening. In other ways I'm still left with "okay but HOW DO I DO LIFE???"

I just wish the understanding of being #ActuallyAutistic and #ActuallyADHD *ALSO* came with a "SO NOW WHAT" manual 🙃

I know I’m not alone, though. And it always makes me feel "seen" when I hear other people sharing their explorations.

@actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd

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To all my fellow #ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyADHD and #AUDHD double-winners, I’m curious if you too have felt you had to “make yourself smaller”?

For me it was a survival mechanism…much like masking and passing. And just as damaging.

That’s what drove me to write this essay. I want more of us #neurodivergent people to take up space. To be who we are fully. Not who makes others comfortable.

We need more neurodivergent joy and safety in this world.

@actuallyautistic

I've spent a lifetime making myself smaller for everyone.

Making myself the version of me that was most useful and comfortable for everyone around me.

And I *HAVE* to stop before I disappear.

I wrote about learning to TAKE UP SPACE: fromemily.com/space-taking-def

Maybe you've made yourself smaller too? Let's TAKE UP SPACE together.

@actuallyautistic

...from Emily Moran BarwickI’ve Spent a Lifetime Making Myself Smaller and I HAVE to Stop Before I Disappear (or “How Buying an Oversized ‘Everyday’ Bag Was a Revolutionary Act of Space-Taking Defiance”)I'm learning I'm allowed to take up space. (And doing it with one BIG-ASS-BAG.)
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@StaceyCornelius I’ve been (unsuccessfully) seeking that Goldilocks “sweet spot” for a lifetime now..

I crave it with all of my being but seem to always swing too far one way, then overcorrect with a vengeance.

Being #ActuallyAutistic & #ActuallyADHD sometimes feels like an impossible combination to “please”. Your graceful way of wording this makes me want to try a gentler approach with my #neurodivergent self.

…I always forget to be gentle…

I want to be in dialogue with my #website my work, and the people who find it. Not have it be just a space where I publish posts and #art, but a living work itself. I want to engage with and collaborate with it. I want to inform it and for it to inform me.

- from my evolving "Website Manifesto": fromemily.com/website-manifest

...from Emily Moran BarwickWebsite ManifestoA manifesto for my okay enough website: a living document encouraged to change/evolve/grow.

@lifewithtrees
I think it’s SO important to celebrate executive function/self-care victories.

I feel like the “everyday life” stuff takes a Herculean effort to maintain & attend to with my #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic brain.

I used to think I was weak & messy & irresponsible (even though I kept things “kinda together” mostly by force).

Now I try to remind myself how remarkable it is that I even feed & clothe myself 🙃

@actuallyadhd @actuallyautistic

Okay, what happened? I had breakfast, did chores, dragged myself out for a walk, let myself stop three times to look for a long audio cable before getting home, having lunch followed by hanging the washing & now it's nearly teatime 😳?
Unless I want to still be up at 03:00 I'd better cancel my afternoon plans.
This, this is why I'm mostly frustrated. I need to lock my chores up & only let them out once a week or something 🤷 but it always feels like herding cats. There's always one that's urgent or needs doing before tomorrow, plus I don't fancy tackling seven days of washing up. Where would I put the second half of it?😵‍💫

Hi. I'm terrified.

I've been trying to make my own space on the web for years. And I've been stuck. Badly.

But today is my birthday. And I refuse to let another year pass without putting something—anything—out there

So here it is in all its messy glory. My first post on my barely-there #website: fromemily.com/hi-im-terrified/

It's not great. But it's okay...enough

And I hope it means something to someone

@actuallyautistic

...from Emily Moran BarwickHi. I'm Terrified, Creatively Constipated, and Existentially Angsty as Fuck. And I'm Judging Every Word of This Post. And It's Not What I Want it to Be.The very first post on my okay enough website. And it's...fine.

Hi. I'm terrified.

I've been trying to make my own space on the web for years. And I've been stuck. Badly.

But today is my birthday. And I refuse to let another year pass without putting something—anything—out there.

So here it is in all its messy glory. My first post on my barely-there #website: fromemily.com/hi-im-terrified/

It's not great. But it's okay...enough.

And I hope it means something to someone.

@actuallyautistic

...from Emily Moran BarwickHi. I'm Terrified, Creatively Constipated, and Existentially Angsty as Fuck. And I'm Judging Every Word of This Post. And It's Not What I Want it to Be.The very first post on my okay enough website. And it's...fine.